Workload

My full-time job at the moment is being a full time student. Yes, that can be very overwhelming. At least, that's how I feel. I looked at the syllabus last night before my first MA class; I was so freaked out and worried, but today when we were in class the teacher told us what the stuff were and that's less stressful. I am still paranoid about this whole "Medical Field" thing. I never really thought I would actually do it. I remember growing up I had so many options in mind. From being a laywer, teacher, and even a doctor. It has just never occurred to me until now that I actually want to be in the Medical field to be a MA. I am in the program and I am really exciting because I know I'll have a stable job and a settled income.

The hardest struggle I have right now is that I was never really exposed to the medical field, which can be very challenging for me. With all those medical terms I have to learn and memorize; makes it even harder for me sometimes. I am bilingual and I am pretty proud; being able to live in two different cultures makes me feel special, but then it's really hard to adapt/live in both. Lifestyles are lifestyles...it takes a while to change. I've been in the US for so long, so I guess I can say I am more Americanized in some ways. I actually still can't believe that in 1 year or 2 I'll be working as a MA in the field. I am still deciding if I want to go back to school after I am done with the program.

Today in class, we had to give a little self introduction about why we chose this program? I was startled because I didn't realize how many of us had the same path we're going through. Many of the classmates are in the program because it's easy to get into, it'll add points to your nursing, and also a pathway to some other career. Whatever it is, we all have to start somehow right? I am looking forward to making new friends; makes me feel anxious. It's like woah me make friends? That surprising because it's been so long...Lol

Until next time; gotta gets some sleep for my morning morning class. Good bye for now; readers, viewers, or whoever you are. ;)

Who's certified? What what?

I am finally certified for First Aid and CPR. No worries, Nannerz is here if you need. *sike* I am so nervous. I can't imagine actually working on a real person; not that I don't want to, but I hope I don't have to witness and incident like that. It'll leave a scar because of HIPAA; you're not allowed to disclose any information to anyone. After you have helped the person, you won't know what will happen. Only thing you'll know is that you kept them alive for a bit longer.

The past 2 days I've spend almost 24 hours training. I got up at 7 AM yesterday to drop my parents off work then went straight to school. I was there from 8AM - 5PM. Yes, a very very long day. Today, I had training from 7 - 6:30. I was so sleepy; I barely made it through the lecture, which was about four hours long. I am certified for Bloodborne Pathogen Program that I had to sit 2 hours for. I feel very accomplished being in this feel; I really hope this is the right path for me.

Having to do all this stuff and being able to earn all these certificates or even being certified makes me feel really good. I am super excited because I won't just have an regular college ID card, but I'll have a badge meaning I'll be repp'n the MA's. Super exciting; I know there is a lot ahead of me, but I know God is guiding me through secretly showing me the right path.

Day 4 away from Sc2: It feels horrible because I really want to play just a game but I am winning to make a sacrifice so I'll have something better. It's like when people give up things for Lent, but I am giving it up for my future. I want a better future for myself and my future kids. I don't want them to struggle and having to worry about stuff. I am going to work hard, so my kids will have a better life later on.

I wouldn't want to bring them into this beautiful world and not let them have a good life. I want to be a good parent because that will be the greatest accomplish in a lifetime. I am really looking for to starting class and I am already sorta in school mode. I had a really long day today, but I want to take a nap. Maybe I'll just wait till 10pm or 11pm and just sleep till tomorrow.

I met a few of my classmates. I found out one of them have almost the same schedule as me except she's taking one of the classes online and was not able to get into the same class as me. What a funny thing, but I wouldn't be surprised because most of the people in the program are probably going to be in some of my classes. That sounds good to me because I just might as them if they want to study together with me, since we have a similar schedule. ;)

Oh, I'll have to wear scrubs to go to school because they're preparing us in the professional field. Good bye piercings~!

Withdrawal from Sc2. . .

I have never felt this and never really thought I would be so addicted to Starcraft II. I lost track of time from how long I was on that game. I had to put myself to a stop because school is starting soon and I don't want to interfere with my school work. Honestly, I felt really carefree when I was playing Sc2 because I was away from reality. I have to admit I was addicted and I couldn't stop playing. It was to the point where I would forget to eat and push eating aside. Right now, I am suffering from lack of appetite. I know it's not a good thing, but to me right now food is not appealing to me at all.

All that runs though my mind is what I can do to improve my strategies in Sc2. This has got to come to a stop because I need to start thinking about what I want to do with my life and start getting back on school mode. I told myself I will not play Sc2 until winter break, maybe by that time I'll end up being a school nerd. Big accomplishment for me, I haven't been on it for almost 3 days. Not only have I not be on or playing Sc2, I haven't even watched a single youtube video about it. People around me are tempting me to play them, but I know I can resist because I have self control.

I know I am a girl and I love to play games. Just because I am a girl doesn't mean I can have fun on games either. Guys have the skills; girls can have it too. I've have people doubted me playing Sc2 saying I won't be as good as them. It took me less than 2 weeks to figure out strategies to win the game. I spent majority of my time on Sc2. I didn't get much sleep from playing Sc2. This had to come to an end, so I am giving it up for something better. School is my priority right now.

I am putting all my focus is school because it'll lead me to a better future. Playing games will not get me anywhere other than an enjoyment on a free time. I believe God has a lot for me and that's why I choose to be a Medical Assistant. I want to make a difference in someone's life, but if I don't change myself to be a better person. How can I put my hands out and help someone else? Some people may think I am crazy because I was so obsessed with "just a game."

It's okay because they'll never know what I have to go through and what has led me into the path of playing games; to hide from reality. I know we all have to face it and deal with it. We aren't as strong as we think we are. I am human, so I have feelings to. I am not a perfect person, but I push myself to make the best out of everything. When I thought I really wanted to be a Graphic Designer; it seems like God pointed me to what I really need to do. I am ready and I can't complain.

I will try to blog about my experience going through the Medical Assistant program, so I can look back later and reflect on what has happened. :)