In less than 2 months, I will be walking down the graduation aisle and I would only have one more term left to finish up my associates degree in General Studies. I would ask myself, What am I going to do with my Bachelors degree? Honestly, I have no clue what I wanted to do. I managed to keep signing myself up with classes that keeps linking to some sorta Medical Field. Indeed, it's very interesting and I learned a lot more. I have to at first it was very hard to get used to having to always study and cram non stop with all these things to memorized. I've managed to adapt and overcome that stage.
Right now, I only have two terms left. I am taking two Psychology classes but I have to say it's definitely time consuming and a lot of reading. Also, taking a Business law class where I find it to be interesting but then again.. it's been awhile since I've taking anything outside the medical classes. This class requires a lot of opinions and facts, which is kinda challenging at times. I would read others people post and look at my own.. it just makes me feel useless or not qualified or even make any sense. I am trying my best to do what I can, i just keep telling myself only two more terms, and I know I can do it if I set my mind to it.
I have about two - three months more to decide when I want to move because I know where I am currently at won't give me much opportunity. I am ready to go out there, explore, view things differently, and feel independent. I am definitely going to miss family, friends, and just being alone. Right now, I am trusting that God will guide me through and and show me the right path. I know there will be bumps here and there, but I know I will make the right choice eventually.
I still cannot believe that I will be done with college. I should feel proud of myself, but then again a lot of my friends are already finishing grad school and starting up their career in the field they pursued. I know some day I will get there because everyone has their own place of doing things.
Lately, I've been going through different phases. I can't control why I am doing that but it gives some some of self satisfaction at times, but then again there are times where I just break down and can't take it anymore. Like a lot of people say, I need to learn how to let it go or just get over it. It's really easier said than done, but I am trying my best to forget all it ever happened. I realized how someone can just play it off and pretend things never happened. That's fine with me because I know the truth deep down. Everyone can say whatever they want their because I now the truth deep down. You won't always get the truth from someone else even thought you're telling the truth.
"Life shouldn't be like a theater where you have to act or pretend to be something or someone you're not. Be yourself, express yourself, and enjoy being who you really are."
