Feelings.

I am a girl and I have feelings too okay? I mean it really doesn't take much to make me cry, what really hurts the most is the feeling of being betrayed. I don't even know what to think anymore. I feel like everything I do means nothing because in the end I'll just be standing, sitting or just venting here alone. I try to be a stronger person, but I just can't fight my feelings because I am weak and they are much stronger. I'll never be able to overcome it.

My feelings will be so attached to something and if you move or touch it I'll really feel it. It's that sensitive okay? I keep telling people but I guess they just dont believe me. I have times when I am serious and just times where I'll just joke around with you with no limits. I mean some things are just meant ot be hidden; I understand. To really fuck around withe my emotions and tell me later. That's the worst feeling ever, I feel like the world has betrayed me.

Everything I do means NOTHING. I try my best to hide my feelings but I just can't win it. I say what I feel and do what I feel, I don't hold back anything. This is really hard, maybe I need to limit to what I say because sometimes people just don't understand this. I am tired of always being there and not having anyone be there when I need. Everything seems like a joke, really?

Please tell me I am wrong. . .

Please. . .

God, give me some motivation. Lately, I feel like things just aren't going the way I want to. I feel really overwhelmed with all the stuff that's going on in my life right now. I don't even know where to start and my only escape is ...I am trying my best to overcome it, but I just can't. I feel weak, please give me some strength. I know I am stronger than this, I shouldn't let this get to me. I need to try my best.

The term is coming to an end, was getting a part time job really a good thing? I feel like I can't get anything done. My time isn't used efficiently and insomnia is kicking in again. Please tell me what I am suppose to do or guide me through. I know there is a path set for me already, but I just don't know how to walk through it right now. I know that no one will hold my hand through this; I must make it through myself.

I am trying to put a limit, but I am just lacking that motivation. Stress, worry, and everything else is messing me up mentally. I feel like I am going to collapse any minute; time is doing no justice. Is this what is really going to happy? Please guide me through and give me some motivation. . .