Beauty of school

What happened to environmental friendly? Theses classes are making me kill so many trees. I bet by the end of the term I'll probably killed half a forest, if it's not a whole. As you see in the picture, this is what I've been doing all this time since I've been lacking up updates. Yes, I've been making flash cards for my Medical Terminology class. I didn't spend hours making it, but I did take frequent breaks.

I put the sticky notes, so I know which are which since there's 3 different kinds of vocabulary. Yikes, my test is tomorrow and for once I feel like I'll do good because I made the initiative to make flash cards and also find alternative ways to make studying better. As you know, many of us would not spend hours studying or just being focus. At least for me, I get really distracted and I'll end up forgetting that I have to study. I just do this for about 30 minutes, take a break, and then eat some snack or just browse the web.

I mean come on look at all that flashcards; it's actually a lot to remember if you ask me. I managed to remember 2 sections of it. (Yay!) Week 1 of school is finished; ready for more class. I just realized in less than 2 months I'll be legal, by that means I'll officially be an adult.

I am kinda of excited because I get to see BF, who's coming to spend my Birthday and Thanksgiving again. It'll be fun because we might have more visitors. I hope things will work its way out. I probably won't be partying much because it's near the end of the term, so I will have the BF help me study and review the stuff with me.

I mean come on...what else can you use guys for? Either to fix stuff, or just to keep you company right? I feel kind of lucky because this one will do everything. Ladies, go find your own and back off mine. Thanks.

Workload

My full-time job at the moment is being a full time student. Yes, that can be very overwhelming. At least, that's how I feel. I looked at the syllabus last night before my first MA class; I was so freaked out and worried, but today when we were in class the teacher told us what the stuff were and that's less stressful. I am still paranoid about this whole "Medical Field" thing. I never really thought I would actually do it. I remember growing up I had so many options in mind. From being a laywer, teacher, and even a doctor. It has just never occurred to me until now that I actually want to be in the Medical field to be a MA. I am in the program and I am really exciting because I know I'll have a stable job and a settled income.

The hardest struggle I have right now is that I was never really exposed to the medical field, which can be very challenging for me. With all those medical terms I have to learn and memorize; makes it even harder for me sometimes. I am bilingual and I am pretty proud; being able to live in two different cultures makes me feel special, but then it's really hard to adapt/live in both. Lifestyles are lifestyles...it takes a while to change. I've been in the US for so long, so I guess I can say I am more Americanized in some ways. I actually still can't believe that in 1 year or 2 I'll be working as a MA in the field. I am still deciding if I want to go back to school after I am done with the program.

Today in class, we had to give a little self introduction about why we chose this program? I was startled because I didn't realize how many of us had the same path we're going through. Many of the classmates are in the program because it's easy to get into, it'll add points to your nursing, and also a pathway to some other career. Whatever it is, we all have to start somehow right? I am looking forward to making new friends; makes me feel anxious. It's like woah me make friends? That surprising because it's been so long...Lol

Until next time; gotta gets some sleep for my morning morning class. Good bye for now; readers, viewers, or whoever you are. ;)

Class

I don't know what people are saying on "ratemyprofessor.com." They all say good teachers are bad, but then bad teachers are good. Like seriously, think before you really say something. My last anatomy teacher had good feedback, but then he was horrible. He thought he knew he was the best but then he didn't really make sense. My new anatomy teacher is awesome; she's got a sense of humor, very explaining, and very helpful. I will need to make a time to stop by the office so I can get a more detailed idea. I guess so far so good.

It's time to end all the gaming; it's going to come to an conclusion.

Until next time again. . .

First day...

It was not as bad as I thought. I was really confused because of the class, since there was a Rm___A and RM____B. I was like wth, which one am I suppose to go to? I had one lady ask me if I was waiting for writing class and a few other questions. The teacher is younger than I thought; he has a sense of humor and always he's pretty "okay" looking. I already have so much work loaded on to me because I have a test next week. First test, Yikes*. I am so not ready because supposedly the book I got is the wrong edition compared to the one they use now. That means, 80 bucks!

The beauty of college. <3

I still need to get scrubs, shoes, and my badge. There is so much to do and yet so little time. Time to start working on some other stuff from classes that hasn't even started.

Until next time readers...:0

Keep dreaming. . .

Class starts this week for me; only down fall is that I have a night class. No I am not going to post or tell you what day I am and what time I'll be there. I wish I had someone to walk me to/from class. If only the boyfriend was closer; he can pick me up or sit in the library and read a book. I am not looking forward to this class.

1. The teacher is not on ratemyprofessor.com
2. It was the only class that fit in my schedule.
3. I hope he/she won't rant on forever to delay my time to leave.

I am ready, but then I wish I had more time to do other stuff too. I have a pile of laundry that looks like a mini laundry mountain waiting for me to clear up. It's disgusting looking through it, but life goes on right? I hate having/seeing messing stuff. It bugs me, so I have to clean it or fix it. I feel like I am a perfectionist, like everything have to go right or else I'll go psycho. It can be OCD too, oh joy. The many possibilities to distinguishing symptoms.

I am decided if I should go in to get my badge for school or should I wait because I know it's going to be so fureaking packed. I am not ready, but I won't have to worry about parking because I'll either get dropped off or I'll find a parking. I feel the luck that's why. Not really, I would hate to park so far and have to haul myself to my car after a long day of school.

Yes, I am very last but I am not the only one who does this. I am sure other people out there do the same thing. That's what we call life. I am ready and I know God is watching my moves.. He will make sure I am safe and protected all the time.

Who's certified? What what?

I am finally certified for First Aid and CPR. No worries, Nannerz is here if you need. *sike* I am so nervous. I can't imagine actually working on a real person; not that I don't want to, but I hope I don't have to witness and incident like that. It'll leave a scar because of HIPAA; you're not allowed to disclose any information to anyone. After you have helped the person, you won't know what will happen. Only thing you'll know is that you kept them alive for a bit longer.

The past 2 days I've spend almost 24 hours training. I got up at 7 AM yesterday to drop my parents off work then went straight to school. I was there from 8AM - 5PM. Yes, a very very long day. Today, I had training from 7 - 6:30. I was so sleepy; I barely made it through the lecture, which was about four hours long. I am certified for Bloodborne Pathogen Program that I had to sit 2 hours for. I feel very accomplished being in this feel; I really hope this is the right path for me.

Having to do all this stuff and being able to earn all these certificates or even being certified makes me feel really good. I am super excited because I won't just have an regular college ID card, but I'll have a badge meaning I'll be repp'n the MA's. Super exciting; I know there is a lot ahead of me, but I know God is guiding me through secretly showing me the right path.

Day 4 away from Sc2: It feels horrible because I really want to play just a game but I am winning to make a sacrifice so I'll have something better. It's like when people give up things for Lent, but I am giving it up for my future. I want a better future for myself and my future kids. I don't want them to struggle and having to worry about stuff. I am going to work hard, so my kids will have a better life later on.

I wouldn't want to bring them into this beautiful world and not let them have a good life. I want to be a good parent because that will be the greatest accomplish in a lifetime. I am really looking for to starting class and I am already sorta in school mode. I had a really long day today, but I want to take a nap. Maybe I'll just wait till 10pm or 11pm and just sleep till tomorrow.

I met a few of my classmates. I found out one of them have almost the same schedule as me except she's taking one of the classes online and was not able to get into the same class as me. What a funny thing, but I wouldn't be surprised because most of the people in the program are probably going to be in some of my classes. That sounds good to me because I just might as them if they want to study together with me, since we have a similar schedule. ;)

Oh, I'll have to wear scrubs to go to school because they're preparing us in the professional field. Good bye piercings~!

Withdrawal from Sc2. . .

I have never felt this and never really thought I would be so addicted to Starcraft II. I lost track of time from how long I was on that game. I had to put myself to a stop because school is starting soon and I don't want to interfere with my school work. Honestly, I felt really carefree when I was playing Sc2 because I was away from reality. I have to admit I was addicted and I couldn't stop playing. It was to the point where I would forget to eat and push eating aside. Right now, I am suffering from lack of appetite. I know it's not a good thing, but to me right now food is not appealing to me at all.

All that runs though my mind is what I can do to improve my strategies in Sc2. This has got to come to a stop because I need to start thinking about what I want to do with my life and start getting back on school mode. I told myself I will not play Sc2 until winter break, maybe by that time I'll end up being a school nerd. Big accomplishment for me, I haven't been on it for almost 3 days. Not only have I not be on or playing Sc2, I haven't even watched a single youtube video about it. People around me are tempting me to play them, but I know I can resist because I have self control.

I know I am a girl and I love to play games. Just because I am a girl doesn't mean I can have fun on games either. Guys have the skills; girls can have it too. I've have people doubted me playing Sc2 saying I won't be as good as them. It took me less than 2 weeks to figure out strategies to win the game. I spent majority of my time on Sc2. I didn't get much sleep from playing Sc2. This had to come to an end, so I am giving it up for something better. School is my priority right now.

I am putting all my focus is school because it'll lead me to a better future. Playing games will not get me anywhere other than an enjoyment on a free time. I believe God has a lot for me and that's why I choose to be a Medical Assistant. I want to make a difference in someone's life, but if I don't change myself to be a better person. How can I put my hands out and help someone else? Some people may think I am crazy because I was so obsessed with "just a game."

It's okay because they'll never know what I have to go through and what has led me into the path of playing games; to hide from reality. I know we all have to face it and deal with it. We aren't as strong as we think we are. I am human, so I have feelings to. I am not a perfect person, but I push myself to make the best out of everything. When I thought I really wanted to be a Graphic Designer; it seems like God pointed me to what I really need to do. I am ready and I can't complain.

I will try to blog about my experience going through the Medical Assistant program, so I can look back later and reflect on what has happened. :)

Readers.....where?

Thanks to whoever is reading this; that means you actually wonder what goes on and what I go through. Honestly, it makes me feel weird but then I know what I have coming already. This is public and I am ready to meet you all who are interested to share your thoughts or advice with me. I am still new to this blogger site. I know I've made this thing for awhile, but I keep pushing back my updates because I'll end up forgetting or I'll just not be in a blogger mode. Thanks again for reading and commenting.

I have no clue what to write other than my feelings, life, and what's going on with my mind at the moment.

Right now, I am resisting the urge to go play Sc2 because I made myself a promise that I won't go on for a big since school is starting for me. Orientation is tomorrow, training starts Friday, and class officially starts on Monday for me. Am I excited? I have no clue. I am just anxious and worried about what is ahead of me. Worried about how I'll do in this program and what things would be like? I am sure other out there are thinking the same thing.

I am ready for what is coming ahead of me. Keep my heads up and embrace what I will have yet to be close to. . .

Thanks for reading. If a stranger stumbles by, please let me know how I can improve my blog. Remember follow, comment, and enjoy reading. I will return the favor. :)

Not Ready

I've been trying to drown myself from reality, which isn't a good idea because knowing we live in it. We all have to face it, but then there are just some things that I wish would just go smoothly. It's life, there is nothing we can do other than change it or improve it to be better. I know things happen for a reason and we should learn how to deal with it, but it's really hard when you don't know how to deal with it. I've an abnormal sleep schedule. It's to the point where I can pull a all nighter and probably not sleep for days. I think I'll still manage, I feel like sleep is not important anymore with all the stuff that's going on in my mind.

I have training at the school this Thursday and Friday for my program. I feel kind of anxious and nervous at the same time. I don't know what is going to happen, who would be there, and what it would be like. It's always the same questions that keeps flowing through my mind. I keep asking myself stuff that I can't even answer or do at this point. I've been telling myself that I do need to get back on my sleep schedule because I have morning class. I've been trying to motivate myself to change my study habits and do all the stuff I can to improve my lifestyle. It actually seems harder than you think.

I don't know where to start, but I am trying my best to cope with all the stress I have in my life before school starts. I know chances don't come often, but if I mess up again. I don't know what would happen. We all make mistakes and that's how we learn from it. I am not afraid to admit that at some point in life I didn't bother trying or just didn't put enough effort into something. I know if you're passionate about something, you would try your best to do everything you can to achieve it. I've seen it happen through many people, but I just can't imagine myself achieving something that's really important.

The struggles in life really shapes who you are, but sometimes it would just make you a stronger person. Also, I remember someone saying, "If you don't take better care of yourself, how can you take care of someone you love?" That's one thing, I'll always remember because I feel like I am don't care about myself as much as I care about others. I should learn how to put myself first before someone else. This might sound selfish or what not, but referring back to that quote, it actually makes sense.

As many say, "Life is full of many wonders and surprises." I am not ready, but I will try my best to endure what is coming ahead of me.

Feeling insonamic...

I haven't been able to sleep. Its like my sleeping schedule took a 360 degree spin all of a sudden. I don't get tired until like...6am - 8am in the morning. And lack of sleep screws up with your memory and everything else you have to do. You'll be less concentrated, not only that you feel like you need to bum around. At least that's for me. I am eating less, but then my body tells me I have to at least something. It's to the point where my mind is out of control.

Advice: Try to get all the sleep you can, while you can because when you can't get any sleep you'll be regretting in.

I need to change this bad sleeping schedule back to normal. Anyways, I still don't understand how people can have a "set time" for time to eat. As for me, I eat when I am hungry or when I feel like it. Sometimes I'll forgot and I never know what time I eat. I know it's bad, but it's really not intentional.

I just get so caught up when I am doing something, I'll end up forgetting what I am doing. Like today, I don't even remember half of what I did. Lol, this is very sad. Lately, I've been really addicted to Starcraft II(SC2). Yes, it just came out. I had no idea how to play it, but I am getting the hang of it. Hopefully when school starts my gaming mode will be in cave mode. I really miss school and can't wait till it starts.

I feel like playing games isn't very productive, even though it's so much fun I just can't help it. I have another week and school starts for me. (Yay?!) There's still so much things I need to do before school starts....I can start doing it by stop playing SC2 so much. Lol

Indecisive much?

Now I am sitting here questioning myself....did I pick the wrong field? Is the field I chose going to be the right one for me? Is this what I want to do for the rest of my life or am I just doing it so others will be happy? Theses things has been running in my mind constantly. Right now, I am in the Medical Assistant program. A few months ago, I was decided to apply for the Graphic Design program and only about 30 people/students will get accepted each year. I printed out the application almost all the stuff I needed to complete the packet, then I thought to myself. What makes me better than the rest of the other applicants?

I mean I enjoy playing with photoshop, doing some web designing, and just drawing. I will admit...I am not the best in any of those, but I'd love to learn more because when you're passionate about something you'll do everything you can to have a grasp on it. I told myself, I shouldn't apply because you'll probably only have a good decent paying job. 1) if you're really good in the field 2) if you're experienced and someone likes your work. This would probably go towards any art field because art is indescribable. It's a piece of work where you'll think it's your best but someone else thing it's just any other work.

I was very excited about apply for it, but something else changed my mind. For now, I just want a stable job and something that's enough for me to live off. I don't need to be luxurious or high demand sort of deal. I decided to apply for Medical Assistant program. The funny thing is, I thought I wouldn't be able to get in because my GPA isn't the greatest, but I got in. I was really happy to know that some day I'll be making a difference in someones life or actually putting a smile on their face. The idea of being able to help or make someone happy makes my heart smile.

I just hope what I chose, I will not regret. I am mostly worried about getting through the program and actually being on the work field. That's probably one thing that frightens me the most, but if you're passionate about something anything s possible. One thing that bugs me the most is being so indecisive.

Seasonal Blogger?

Woah, I just checked my last post; it's been 2 months since I've updated this thing. I keep mentioning that I'll try to keep up with it but it's really hard with so much going on. Actually, I am on the computer, but I just couldn't make the initiation to update just a little post. I mean, I don't even think anyone reads this and if whoever did. They'll probably stop following me since I barely update this thing. I don't even think I have any followers or frequent readers, hence why I never update. I don't really care if anyone reads this or follow me or w/e you call it. I am updating to look back on later, since I know I have the worst memory.

I should really do like a daily blog to just write about my day, feelings, or random thoughts. I know for sure I'll be laughing at myself when I read this later on but for now here is what I'll write. :)