A new home. . .

I found out I was accepted into the program that I applied for. It was nothing more than exciting for me to find out that my hard work paid off.

One of the hardest thing for me was to say bye to my family and friends. They have been there for me unconditionally throughout my journey. I am more than happy to know they will be there whenever I need them. I am feeling so grateful, blessed, and scared. It will be a new change for me, for sure. There are so much things I have to consider such as paying rent, food, and how to live on my own. I never took granted of how my parents provided me with a home but now that I am out on my own I am yet clueless. I am not sure where to start or what I need to do. Again, I am glad I have friends who are willing to share their recipes and experience on being alone.

My feelings right now are scared, worried, and excited in a way. I try not to think about so much into the future. I just want to be able to make it through the month without struggling. I am hoping this journey will open more doors for me in the future. I believe that God has things planned for me. I went through so many different job interviews and haven't heard anything. I had the opportunity to attend a information session and later on I was able to complete the application process. About a week later, I found out I got accepted. I feel like I am living a dream right now.

I try to keep a smile and let others know how excited I am to be able to have this journey. I am afraid to tell them how scared and worried I am. When you don't think too hard about something, you just feel like everything around you is blank. When you really take the time to think deeply about situations like this. Your subconscious emotions hits you in the face. I am really scared of being alone and not having anyone but I know my friends and family will still be there no matter one. I want to prove to them that I will succeed in this program.

To do that, I will try my very best and I will not let myself feel scared or down. I told myself I am going to spread my arms open and accept everything opportunity I have and grasp on everything I can grasp on. I am just hoping that things will work out. I will slowly try to change my habits and slowly adapt to here. Many of my friends have asked me, are you excited? I tell them, more than excited. I know they all want me to succeed and be happy so I will try my best and do what I can. I will not give up so I will do everything I can to achieve my short-term and long-term goals.

For now, this will have to end. Orientation starts next week. I can't wait to meet new people. Today, when I was at the airport I met about 3 random person that I have no clue who they were but I was able to communicate with them and got to know them a little more. They don't know me but they congratulated me anyways when I told them this will be my new hometown. I am loving each and every bit of life right now because God has plans for me so I am ready to take this road.

Workload

My full-time job at the moment is being a full time student. Yes, that can be very overwhelming. At least, that's how I feel. I looked at the syllabus last night before my first MA class; I was so freaked out and worried, but today when we were in class the teacher told us what the stuff were and that's less stressful. I am still paranoid about this whole "Medical Field" thing. I never really thought I would actually do it. I remember growing up I had so many options in mind. From being a laywer, teacher, and even a doctor. It has just never occurred to me until now that I actually want to be in the Medical field to be a MA. I am in the program and I am really exciting because I know I'll have a stable job and a settled income.

The hardest struggle I have right now is that I was never really exposed to the medical field, which can be very challenging for me. With all those medical terms I have to learn and memorize; makes it even harder for me sometimes. I am bilingual and I am pretty proud; being able to live in two different cultures makes me feel special, but then it's really hard to adapt/live in both. Lifestyles are lifestyles...it takes a while to change. I've been in the US for so long, so I guess I can say I am more Americanized in some ways. I actually still can't believe that in 1 year or 2 I'll be working as a MA in the field. I am still deciding if I want to go back to school after I am done with the program.

Today in class, we had to give a little self introduction about why we chose this program? I was startled because I didn't realize how many of us had the same path we're going through. Many of the classmates are in the program because it's easy to get into, it'll add points to your nursing, and also a pathway to some other career. Whatever it is, we all have to start somehow right? I am looking forward to making new friends; makes me feel anxious. It's like woah me make friends? That surprising because it's been so long...Lol

Until next time; gotta gets some sleep for my morning morning class. Good bye for now; readers, viewers, or whoever you are. ;)