Stressed

I am stressed to the max. I am loosing track of everything....I forgot where I last leave things. I'll end up going crazy looking for it. When I can't find it..I feel like I can't sleep because I didn't find it. My brain is telling me I need to find it, so I can go lay down. There's so much going on right now, I don't even know where to start. I have never felt this stressed before. I am stress to the point, where I want to just cry but it's not like anything is going to change. Everything will just be the same, unless I do something about it. I am trying everything I can right now....I have school to worry about, the family, the dogs, and more crap. Why do us humans have to go through so much? I know this is life, but still why can't life seem a little more smooth on my side of the world.

I only wish things were like before, why is everything going so bad? I just want to relax and enjoy myself. I feel like no one understands me and its hard to even talk to someone about my problems. One, They'll probably think I am crazy. Two, They may just think I am some kinda worry wart. Three, who knows maybe they aren't even trying at all. I know, I can be crazy at times but that's me. There is nothing I can change, I've done enough for everyone...Maybe its time for me to start thinking for myself. I find that very selfish if I do, why should I even put others first? Do they even put me first? There are so many questions that I can't even answer and probably no one can answer.

All human beings are born to be selfish and only care about themselves. Why can't people think in another perspective? I don't even know anymore...I've been trying my best to do school, house stuff, and deal with the dogs. Right now, I am at the point of exploding. I feel like a time bomb....