Lack of updates.

Blogger told me last time I updated this blog was on March 26 and today it's May 11th. I am for sure not a dedicated blogger. Lol, HEY! you gotta give me props for at least trying to update this thing. It's really not my fault that I am overwhelmed with school, family, and school. Yeah, pretty much blame it all on school. It occupies almost 20 hours of my day because there is just so much to do, and you wonder where that 4 hour goes? Maybe eat or do stuff for the family.

Indeed, there is no time for myself. I try to make time for myself, but with all the homework load its very very hard. Summer is coming and I have no idea what I am going to do. All I know is that I am going to register for summer classes. Maybe after that get away before fall term starts? Who knows? I have like NY/PA, CA, and FL in mind. It really depends on where ever is cheaper, but we know H O M E will be the cheapest.

I think I really need myself a mini vacation. I am starting to feel like a walking stress bomb that will exploded anytime, but I am not sure when. When that happens, its not very good. I seem to be able to endure quite a lot before that will happen, but it just get to the point where people are trying to mess with my buttons or keep lighting a flame to the bomb. It's like a time bomb with XXX amount of time. I'll never know, until it happens.

This is enough for now, I need to catch up on my homework. Sleep misses me, so I need to work on making time for it. :)

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Stressed

I am stressed to the max. I am loosing track of everything....I forgot where I last leave things. I'll end up going crazy looking for it. When I can't find it..I feel like I can't sleep because I didn't find it. My brain is telling me I need to find it, so I can go lay down. There's so much going on right now, I don't even know where to start. I have never felt this stressed before. I am stress to the point, where I want to just cry but it's not like anything is going to change. Everything will just be the same, unless I do something about it. I am trying everything I can right now....I have school to worry about, the family, the dogs, and more crap. Why do us humans have to go through so much? I know this is life, but still why can't life seem a little more smooth on my side of the world.

I only wish things were like before, why is everything going so bad? I just want to relax and enjoy myself. I feel like no one understands me and its hard to even talk to someone about my problems. One, They'll probably think I am crazy. Two, They may just think I am some kinda worry wart. Three, who knows maybe they aren't even trying at all. I know, I can be crazy at times but that's me. There is nothing I can change, I've done enough for everyone...Maybe its time for me to start thinking for myself. I find that very selfish if I do, why should I even put others first? Do they even put me first? There are so many questions that I can't even answer and probably no one can answer.

All human beings are born to be selfish and only care about themselves. Why can't people think in another perspective? I don't even know anymore...I've been trying my best to do school, house stuff, and deal with the dogs. Right now, I am at the point of exploding. I feel like a time bomb....