Sick

Not physically; just mentally SICK!

Warning: Be prepared for some whining and bitching about everything.

First of all, I am on winter break right now. All I do is work and do shit for my family, I feel like I am going to explode any time soon. I thought being in school was painful, but NOPE I feel more stressed right now then I was in school. I feel that the only thing that's causing me stress is my family. All I hear is then bitching and complaining and telling me to do this and that. In the end, sometimes it's just not appreciated. I feel like I am losing sleep and lacking memory from all this. I don't know how much longer I can take, but if I had a choice to leave right now I think I would just walk out and never come back.

As cruel as this sound, I think I'll be doing my mind, body, and self a favor. All these years, I feel like I've been slaving. After all, I know they are my parents and all but I am human. A human with two hands and two foot. One can only do so much, please stop telling me to do this and that. Just because I know how to do it or I can do it doesn't mean I will sit here 24/7 just for you and then later on have you come bitching at me about it. I am tired, I work almost 20 hours on the weekend and I still get yelled at for sleeping in just a little bit.

Well, I am sorry for not meeting your criteria maybe you should find someone else who will do all this for you. I am starting to that they feel that I "HAVE" to do it because it's my job. Well NO, excuse me. Why don't you find other peoples kids and see if they do all this crap for their family? The answer would most likely be..NO. I've given up so much and yet you feel like it's not enough. I suggested and even talked about it instead of telling you last minute that I will leave.

Come on now, I am old enough to make my choice. I don't have to make sure you approve anymore. . . I am pretty sure I will survive on my own, but you keep doubting that I won't. I am sick of you making me do this and that. I am tired of all the stress you put me through...for Christmas this year...I want you to leave me alone, so I can have some alone time.

Thanks, may my wishes come true.